Trying to cleanse the mirror

One month into my second semester as a college sophomore, and it’s gone by both slow and fast. I know that sounds really cliche, but it’s true. As an accounting major now, a lot of my time is spent in front of an Excel spreadsheet. Don’t get me wrong, I still have a social life. The friends I have now are a true blessing. I don’t know where I’d be without them. A problem is, though, I don’t know how they see me. Even I am unsure of the kind of person I really am. I figured that my excursion to Europe last semester would help me to see what kind of person I really am. But now I feel like I know the other people in the Vienna group better than I know myself. While in Europe, I noticed how much I was not aware of, whether about the world, or even myself. Have I thrown mud on the mirror that showed who I believed to be myself?
I was driving around earlier, playing my i-pod on the auxilary. The last song that played was “In Christ Alone”. Funny, because that was the same song I suggested to sing while at a mission trip in Chemnitz, Germany. I used that song because I wanted them to know that, wherever they may be, they still have Jesus as their hope, and he is the only one that can rescue them. So when I listened to that song again last night, I came to realize that I need to also tell myself that Jesus is my only hope. Deep down inside, I’m lost. I don’t know what path I’m on, or what path I should take. Maybe I’m trying to find hope in the wrong places. Maybe I feel like I’ve made so many mistakes, that I didn’t just trip over a rock on the path, but I fell off a cliff. And in the process of falling off a cliff, I landed on my head, causing me to lose my memory. What can I do to regain my memory? What can I do to wash off the mud off that mirror? By finding the help I truly need, which only Jesus can provide.

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